Thursday, June 29, 2006


I'm sad today. My grandmother died at 4am. She had been sick, and we knew that this was coming. They started Hospice Monday night. I'm glad she didn't suffer for long. She was a 4 pack a day smoker for 40 years and she died of lung cancer. Please, if you smoke, quit. I'm sure if she hadn't smoked she would have lived at least 10 to 15 years longer. She quit smoking 15 years ago. I'm grateful for my fond memories with her, but I wish I could have spent more time with her.

I'm not feeling much like cooking or doing much of anything, but I did go for some retail therapy to lighten my mood. I love the web. I found 5 lbs of coarse Sel Gris De Guerande (Sel Gris de Guérande - Coarse has a unique color that makes this a truly beautiful salt. The grey hue comes from its extremely high level of minerals and nutrients. The crystals range in size from 2-3mm. Popular for baking breads, soups and sauces. The soft, moist crystals will dissolve quickly and evenly when used in your favorite recipes. When used as a finishing salt, Sel Gris Coarse adds a nice crunch to your dishes. Neither treated or washed, it is totally natural and can be used in products that are labeled Organic. *This salt is certified organic by France’s Nature & Progrés. This is the most rigorous salt certification process, which equates to purity and quality. ) for $31.00 and that includes shipping.

I feel shallow and silly for masking my sorrow in frugal salt procurement, but I think my grandma would understand.




17 comments:

  1. I'm sorry to hear this, Melody, and I hope you allow yourself the freedom to grieve in your own way. Take Care.

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  2. I feel for you. My dad passed away in 1998, his lungs quit working. To salt or not to salt, whatever works for you.

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  3. So sorry to hear of your loss...

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  4. Melody, please recive my hugs. I am very sincere when I tell you that my eyes are watering thinking of your loss. My beloved grandmother died suddenly, without giving us signs of sickness when I was abroad, a few years ago.
    It still hurts a lot. And in my opinion, it does not matter if you know or not ahead. Everybody has to die, we know that, but to accept this simple fact is totally another thing.

    Hugs.

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  5. My condolences. I just recently began reading your blog and appreciate the frankness. My gramma (as I called her) died 2 weeks ago - and knowing she's happier than she was in that hospital bed is comforting, to a degree, but it will never be as comforting as when she was alive and healthy.

    I understand the desire to just do nothing at the moment.

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  6. I understand, you're NOT shallow. You're just dealing with saddness. : (

    Teddy

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  7. Oh Melody, you have my deepest sympathies. Both my grandmothers are gone and I feel as if my life has a void. I have many fond memories of them and they still do visit me (if you believe in that - I do now)
    You'll be in my prayers and good thoughts coming from all the bloggers to help you get through this difficult time.

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  8. So sorry to hear about your grandmother. All my grandparents are long gone and I miss them sometimes. Now I'm worried about my parents who are both chain smokers. You're right - smoking is very bad.

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  9. Melody, I'm sorry to hear it. My grandma died from emphysema. Smoking is a terrible habit.

    You aren't shallow, everybody handles grief in different ways.

    Do what you need to and know that your blogger friends are thinking of you.

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  10. Melody - so sorry to hear your sad news. Thinking of you.

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  11. I am very sorry to hear about your grandmother.

    I was a smoker for about 15 years myself. It is very hard to quit once you start. It is amazing that she was able to do so 15 years ago. I am sure that allowed her to live slightly longer.

    Not matter what, I am sure she loved you very much and still does wherever she is.

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  12. Melody, sorry to hear about your grandma...
    My dad died 2 years ago, health related. What saddened me most was that my kids never really got to know him because of distance. My grandparents are long gone, and so's mom.
    You do whatever works for you, and please don't feel bad about it. Take care.

    Hugs...

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  13. oh no Melody...i'm so sorry! Death is so final and so odd. I hope you're extra gentle with yourself and dont' feel guitly for talking about salt. seems pretty normal to me. you have to move forward the best way you can, you know? grieving can come in the most unorthodox ways and it's all okay. my heart is with you today...

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  14. Melody, i have been off the computer since Wednesday night and i am so sorry to have read about this. Please accept my condolences about your grandmother. I'm very, very sorry. *HUGS*

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  15. Yes, Hugs and Condolences to you!

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