Friday, February 01, 2008

I'm FAT

I'm sure if you've been reading me for while you know that I struggle with my weight. It is something that I have allowed to limit my experiences in this life of mine and I am ready to change that. I have lost some weight, but have begun to regain some of it and that is not acceptable to me.

I have decided to publicly commit to changing myself, from the inside out. I have such a passion for healthy and delicious vegan foods, but my outside does not represent that. I am sick and tired of living such a dichotomy.

I am going to change the focus of this blog to weight loss and getting in shape. Food and pictures of food will still be a huge part, but I want to utilize this space for the rest of the story.

Why I overeat and have allowed myself to get so large. I want to cope with my life by taking care of myself, not hurting myself by eating white bread dipped in olive oil.

I know that I can do this. I am planning on making simple changes that allow me to ease into a lifestyle that will support my health in all areas: mentally, physically and spiritually. I will become a whole person who allows myself to become open to ALL possibilities that life has to offer.

This is about so much more than weight loss.

Now, the nitty gritty. I need to lose 110 lbs. That is a lot. I am pretty embarrassed to admit this, but it is what it is. It's not like it's not right there in your face when you meet me!

I am giving myself 2 years to do this. Just over 1 lb a week, which is a decrease of 500 calories a day. In giving myself 2 years, I believe I will be able to achieve the goal. Slow and steady wins the race. It will be an exercise in patience and endurance. No quick fix here.

I will eat between 1800-2200 calories a day and burn between 200-600 calories a day with intentional exercise. Obviously, I will eat more calories on the days I exercise more, so I have some leeway with my plan and won't "give up" if I eat a little too much that day. This will net me an average of 1600 calories a day. My game plan will be to eat around 2000 and burn 400 with intentional exercise. This won't be a HUGE change (hehe, no pun intended) from what I'm doing now with food, but it will be with exercise. That will be making all the difference.

I will be logging my food and exercise in Fitday.com to keep me accountable, which I've been doing on and off for years and if that is not enough, then I will go back to Weight Watchers. I don't want to because I don't want to spend the money, but will if I can't follow through with this.
I will weigh in every Friday morning. This morning was my first and as I said, I need to lose 110 lbs.

My first mini goal is to lose 10 lbs by April 11. I have a feeling I'll lose faster than that in the beginning, but since my goal is 1 pound a week, that is what I'm sticking to and anything else is icing on the cake. HA!

I will have my X take before pics this weekend and I plan on posting comparison pics once a month. The next one will be March 1st.

30 comments:

  1. Melody- I wish you luck, I know that you have the strength to do this!

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  3. Melody, I applaud you. You have a great attitude, and it sounds like your plan is very sustainable. I managed to lose 15 pounds last year with lots of determination. Once I got into regular exercise, and became a very health conscious person, I realized that it was easier than I had ever imagined.

    I wish you the best of luck, and can't wait to hear about your successes in the future!

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  4. Hi Mel! I am with you all the way! You can do it. You are going to be a inspiration to all of us!

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  5. Good luck Melody! I've been dragging my feet on the exercise too much lately. Way to be a good influence :x Maybe I'll get those last couple (or 25) pounds off this year too.

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  6. You can do this, lady! :D :D :D

    I've heard that these two books are really fabulous:
    * The Rules of “Normal” Eating by Dr. Karen Koenig
    * Breaking Free from Emotional Eating by Geneen Roth

    Lots of love to you <3

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  7. You're taking the first step that many of us need to take! Your plan sounds very reasonable and smart - good for you!

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  8. I am so proud of you. I too have more than 100 pounds to lose but I'm waiting until other parts of my life get back to normal a little. I totally believe in slow and steady wins the race and it seems like you've given yourself attainable goals.

    I'll be praying for you to lose the weight and for your dream job.

    Edie

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  9. Thanks for visiting my blog. Yours is full of mouthwatering stuff! Good luck with the weight loss. I am sure you will succeed since you sound like you are going about it in a logical, healthy way. Have you read Eat to Live by Joel Fuhrman? It sounds like it would be up your alley.

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  10. Good luck Melody, I'm sure you will suceed!

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  11. Melody - good for you! Way back when I lost half of my body weight, so you'll have my full support along with the others.

    One really great book that addresses the mental side: The Zen of Eating. Check it out

    Onward!

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  12. Good for you - I think exercise is GREAT for stress relief and good for overall health. When I lost weight years ago, I ate a ton of vegetables w/o sauce and also popcorn (plain).

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  13. You're such an inspiration Melody!

    I wish you the best of luck with your journey. You can totally do this.

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  14. I too am dragging my feet in that dept. I am at the highest weight I have ever been and when I look in the mirror...well, let's not go there. You have set a very realistic goal and just hang in there. With all of your talent in the kitchen, you'll be eating like a queen and not missing a thing. We'll all be here cheering you on. GO MELODY! GO MELODY!

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  15. You are so inspirational Melody. I have struggled the last couple of years to lose the 10 (maybe 15 now) pounds that keeps me from being in the healthy BMI range. I am so glad I can look to your blog for support. You have such a positive attitude and I know YOU CAN DO IT!!!

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  16. Good luck with the weight loss.You have a great attitude, i know you will win!!!!!

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  17. Melody, you will do it. The key is keeping this determination and motivation. I used to be a fitness coach at a local YMCA and what happened 50% of the time is people would drop out after 3 weeks. When those low times happen, because they will,come back and read this entry to give yourself a little boost.

    Check with local gyms to see if they have a 'health' or 'fitness' coach that is included with membership. This will be a person to help you with the machines and an exercise program. Combo strength workouts (burns fat) and cardio (burns calories).

    Your goal is totally doable and just by reading your blog I know you will do it. Just always tell yourself...you are worth it...because you are.

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  18. You can do it, Mel! We <3 YOU and we're cheering you on. I think your goals are very reasonable.

    I'll try to post more low-fat recipes...this is a good reminder to all of us to try to eat healthier.

    You can do it, girl!

    XOXO
    UV

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  19. Good luck! A lot of us have trouble losing weight and will be there trying with you and cheering you along!

    Courtney

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  20. Congratulations on making this first difficult step. I've been down this road before, and it can be a long one, but as you know, the reward at the end is worth more than anything else. If you stick to it, remind yourself why it's important, and don't quit when you fall off the wagon, you will get there. Best of luck to you over the next little bit, I will be here reading every post, cheering you on!

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  21. I applaud you for sharing this and for your efforts in bettering yourself - we can all learn something from you. :-)

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  22. I think it is great that you are putting this all on your blog. My guess it that it will not only help you in your journey, but others as well!
    Wish you all the best in accomplishing your goals. I'll be cheering you on all the way! :-)

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  23. I know you can do it too! I wish you the best of luck!

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  24. Good luck on your 2 year plan, Melody! The fact that you've planned it out, and it sounds do-able makes me think you'll succeed with no worries.

    And, I think you're pretty phat too, like, super cool. (Sorry, I couldn't resist!)

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  25. You can do it!

    We all have faith in you.

    Good luck, Melody.

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  26. You can do it Melody. I"m in a similar boat. I just try not to look at it like a diet and look at it as portion control and moving every day with kody. taking care of youreslf...your temple. you can do it.

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  27. Thank you for this post. I am struggling with my weight as well and started a diet last month. I wish you luck, and I'll be checking back often for inspiration!

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  28. Good for you for being honest! A pound a week is a great goal. :D

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  29. way to be proactive. i know you can do it. i too struggle with my weight and it's the most frustrating thing in the world to be stuck in a body that doesn't express you. http://fullofveggies.blogspot.com/index.html
    has lost tons of weight and is an inspiration. you may find her blog to be of interest.

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  30. Good luck with your plan Melody! I am sure you will do great :)

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