facebook and got 10 nasty emails from different people trying "shame me".
Does it matter that I only took one bite of them?
Should I even have to justify that to anyone?
Give me a break! I know I'm overweight and I know WHY. It's not because I made a damn baked good. It's because I have an emotional response to things that have happened to me and being overweight is my protection. I'm working on it.
It's a painfully slow process, but I'm doing the mental work to make changes and it's not easy.
I don't talk about my childhood here, but trust me, I have a lot to process and plow through and I'm doing it. My way of coping is just visible from the outside while many people hide their pain through cutting/alcohol drug abuse, starving. I overeat.
Which brings me to my next "issue". I stick to my budget MOST of the time. I have a huge stash of nutritional yeast, but no other bulk items. I don't include coffee in my budget anymore though. I consider FOOD as my budget. When I don't stick to my budget, I mention it or if I am given food, I mention it (Like my Birthday Almost Raw Key Lime Pie and my Holiday Meals/Desserts!)
Because I stick to my budget, I am not always able to re-test certain recipes in a timely fashion. I have to plan very carefully to include expensive ingredients in my weekly budget of around $25. What you see is what you get here.. and sometimes, I'd rather splurge my entire $3.33 a day on Cherries and eat frozen soup for the rest of my meals! I hope that YOU can understand that.
I challenge any of you to eat for $3.33 a day!
I'd love to see your strategies and what you come up with!
Finally, the Anti-Soy people, please just SHUT UP. Stop emailing me. You guys are nuts. There was a soy discussion my facebook a couple weeks ago and holy moly, some people have gone off the deep end.
Organic soy is part of my diet and always will be. It is not responsible for my weight gain. It is not going to hurt me. I don't give a BLEEP what Weston Price has to say about it.. OK?
Now that all of that is off my chest, I will give you a glimpse of what I ate yesterday. haha..
Breakfast: Hummus and Veggie Nori Rolls
Split Pea Dahl
Oatmeal with Raisins, Homemade Soymilk and Grapefruit
This morning I had a smoothie (soybeans, frozen strawberry,banana, stevia, lime juice)
I feel a little big better venting and getting some of this off my chest. The last couple of weeks, I have been feeling really negative about blogging and like I just wanted to stop all together. Sometimes, if feels like what's the point of doing this when it draws so much negativity? When blogging is not fun anymore, why bother?
I'm hoping I can let this stuff go and focus on the positive aspects of the blogging community.
I want to thank everyone who is positive, who sends me lovely, supportive emails, leaves me nice comments and shares their lives through their own blogs. You guys are much more powerful than the haters!
For those of you who are bloggers, do you get hate mail? If so, how do you deal with it?